Motherhood

Mother

The Title: Mother

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I never knew a title could consume so much of me. That there is a timeline in my mind of my life with a hard divide of before and after. Who I was before kids, and who I am after. 

Some days I embrace the title, proudly dawn it on my shirt (the one that is loosely fitted to help my judgmental mind). Some days I find the title heavy to carry, like a weight that buries me deeper into the ground with every step I take. 

These little humans will become adults one day and I’m supposed to give them all the tools for success. Tools that I don’t seem to have myself on some days. Some tools that I have never had the privilege to ever have.

Happy mother’s day. One day to celebrate mountains of movement that most mothers do. It isn’t easy, and I’m not sure it ever will be. That is part of the title.

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2021 – Reflections

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Happy new years!

Although it’s feeling a bit repetitive. Same problems, concerns, limitations, and burnout. Mental exhaustion from all the constant back and forth, the unknown, and everything else. Yes folks, we are still in the middle of a pandemic. So you’d think after about two years of it, we would be a bit more prepared… but we aren’t. So it’s easy to look back at the blur that has been 2021 and come out wondering how a whole year just passed us and it still somehow feels like 2020. 
So to put a much needed positive spin on it, I’ll be reflecting on 2021 and all the accomplishments. I just want to add that even a small step towards a bigger goal is still an accomplishment. We learn just as much from the falls as we do from the tiny steps. In 2021 I did my first elopement session! I also did my first out of town wedding. I also switched website hosts and learned a lot while relaunching my website. I survived (barely) virtual school with my son. I self weaned my daughter after 28 months of nursing. I attended and completed therapy for the first time to work on my anxiety. I did the most sessions in a year and that’s counting with the five months of complete lockdown! 
So hello 2022, I won’t claim or expect anything from you.

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Back to Normal?

Two school years have passed with disruptions, confusion, and so much adjusting. As most of us cling to little glimpses of our pre pandemic “normal”, are we setting ourselves up for more disappointment? Are we turning a blind eye or just being mentally/emotionally exhausted from lockdowns, waves, and uncertainty?

Preventative measures are in place from masks, vaccines, new protocols, and added precautions. Back to school sales are in full effect as we shop with weariness in the back of our heads. Should we prep for a virtual classroom if another lockdown takes place? Or buy extra clothes and lunch supplies for an in-person year with no interruptions? All well the struggle to balance working from home with virtual school just a few months ago is still fresh in our minds.

It is hard to imagine what our new normal will consist of. Maybe we will adopt a new acceptable social distance or wear masks in public when we are sick. As we continue to tread unknown territory, I wish a safe school year to our children, and a sane school year for the fellow parents.

*This excerpt can be found in the Highland Creek Newspaper – Fall 2021 Issue

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The Wall

Digital images are amazing, they are a swipe and push away. I love having all my photos stored in “the cloud”, but the ones that make it on the wall I love a little more. Those moments get a special place where they get proudly displayed for all to see. The photos of mommy and daddy when they first met, got married, or before they even became mommy and daddy. The ones as a family of the three of us, and the ones when Eli “is a cute baby”. The one with grandma and grandpa, and the one with grandma we don’t see as often, but still see everyday on the wall. 

These photos, they should be put on display in our home. This is us. The trips, the nostalgia, the past, our history, it’s all in these photos. The bickering before that perfect photo, the meltdown after, the heartburn that we were experiencing at that very moment. I had to be my first client when I wanted to start offering professional printing lab services. So I did the switch, paid more, got the order, and rearranged the wall with more memories and room for the future.

The photos are amazing already, but the quality made it that much more. From photo albums, walls, the staircase gallery, nightstands, to canvas’ for all to enjoy and reminisce, I am seeing the appeal from a personal standpoint on having professional lab prints. Prints are available with all sessions so you can start or add to your version of “the wall”. Check out some print options and offers here.

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Pandemic Wedding Day

Pandemic Wedding Day

We have all been directly impacted by covid, but these two had to have their wedding scheduled for another year. 
How frustrating is it to be ready for this big day and for it to all be up in the air indefinitely? 

Well we had to celebrate the day regardless and that involved a VERY early wake-up call to catch the sunrise along the beach. I thought how fun would it be to have these photos to remember the day that should of been, and to incorporate the reason why it couldn’t be.

We started off the shoot with proper post pandemic hygiene etiquette, and a gorgeous backlit sunrise horizon. Freed themselves of their masks, (disclaimer it was all disposed of appropriately, please don’t litter our earth!), and enjoyed the gorgeous views while taking a moment to embrace the day that should have been their wedding day. Exchanged the rings and vowed to wait for another day to express their love with their loved ones. Took photos as the sun rose and enjoyed the moment for what it was. Than fully committed to the whole thing and got into water; which may I add was freezing cold on this particular (Canadian) summer day.

Congratulations guys! It may not have been your wedding day after all, but your love has grown, endured, and most importantly laughed.

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